" if nothing else I hope you know that I love you woth every ounce of my being. I hope you realize your importance to not only me but to everyone who has been lucky enough to know you. I hope you know that when you’re feeling down I only ever strive for your happiness.i hope you know that no matter what I am always here for you and fully intend on staying in your life for quite some time. I hope you recognize the fact that I appreciate and adore you with out with restraints, and that this will never change"
I’ve never seen any life transformation that didn’t begin with the person in question finally getting tired of their own bullshit.
The worst thing about having an eating disorder is knowing that your thoughts are wrong, but you still think them anyway. It’s like trying to solve a math problem you know you are getting wrong, but you continue finishing it anyways.
IM.JUST LYING TO MYSELF TO MAKE IT ALL SEEM BETTER. I WILL DENY MYSELF ANY EMOTION I EVER HAD FOR YOU SO I DONT GET HURT. SO I DONT HAVE TO FEEL MY FUCKING HEART BEING PEIRCED BY A REALALITY I NEVER WANTED TO KNOW.
I SWEAR TO GOD NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU BECAUSE I FUCKING USED YOU TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL WHOLE AND LEFT WHEN I KNEW YOU COULDNT DO THAT.
YOU ACT LIKE YOURE THE ONLY ONE HURT YOU FUCKING DOUCHE. DONT YOU FUCKING REALIZE WHAT IVE DONE FOR YOU. I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IM ONLY TRYING TO FIX MY SELF BUT I FEEL LIKE YOU’RE TRYING TO TEAR AWAY AT WHAT LITTLEE I HAVE LEFT OF MY SELF.